Rants & Essays
Contents Of a Stressed Mind
It's hard to think of one thing when you
don't want to think at all. A lot of thoughts pour into the mind, most of them
tied by a central thought. Desire, fantasy; why bother fantasizing over
something that you know (or want to believe you know) you're never going to
get? But you do know there is some possibility; nothing is impossible beyond
the scope of man. You just don't want it to happen. It wouldn't be proper; you
feel a little bit selfish. So you lay below your fantasies. It is a bit safer
in your mind. It is not unpredictable and it could turn out nice and happy; the
way you want it.
But what if things start happening? Would you go through
with it and feel guilty or deny yourself something that might or should be?
After considerable soul searching you arrive at a conclusion that you are just
as confused as you were when you started. Hmmm